RV Week 1 + #RVbuns
This post is unpolished and messy. It’s an example of how I practice Growth Mindset Living and how time helps me with emotional processing. These are a few different texts to different friends over the past few days – with minimal editing.
First text to a friend.. left Dallas, and arrived prior night in an Arkansas state park
I wake up to this every morning .. Keith showed me how much more impactful the image is vertically… and I feel like this bunny warrior today.. <see pic of bunny sailing “uphill” against raging waters>
the last 3 days have been tough beyond being sick.. ant infestation, RV engine sounds that made us think twice on the first day, bunny tummy troubles.. Mr Shiner.. he’s definitely improved some but we travel again today.. electricity outages, trying to keep the bunnies cool enough.. 😳 lots of things that I didn’t get to rest much or enjoy the beautiful place we are.. I feel like I’m on a confidence building trip <see “seed saying” pic>, with Keith as my guide. It’s survivable so far.. hoping to get to the enjoyable side next in Memphis.
2nd text to a friend..
Not ready to call just yet.. here’s a bit more info.. I feel like I’m on a scout trip (@Dawn McK, thx for the recent “scout” inspiration! Haha) and earning merit badges for surviving a power outage and keeping our bunnies cool with frozen water bottles, or surviving a massive ant attack inside the RV, or surviving a Dr in Ark. to get steroids for a bad cough / cold I caught from a [sweet baby] before we left dallas! Then our AC in the front went out, and I spent 3 hours yesterday trying to contact 12 mobile mechanics while Keith was driving us to TN.. we get here and in 10 min he has contacted someone who can help.. ugh. I don’t want all these stinkiin’ merit badges for surviving!! 🤪🤪🤪 Hoping Memphis will have some relaxing time too… today is our first day at this campsite.. my Nervous system is settling down.. just back from grocery and eating lunch.. <cue up post another day about surviving vs. thriving>
3rd text to a friend.. arrived in Memphis
Phew.. we are settled into our spot in Memphis. 2 loads of laundry done. With the AC running in our shaded spot… I’ve also been sick… that hoarse voice you noticed turned into a pretty big cough! After steroids, I’m finally feeling better.. so today should be much more enjoyable. Maybe even Beale Street later today or for sure tomorrow!
BTW, Your cookies are fucking phenomenal! <pic of empty cookie tin>
4th text to a friend who lives at our next destination: Nashville..
Hope you had a great day at work! Thanks for letting me mail these few things to your home. It may seem small to you .. but it means the world to me in this new experience of not knowing how to get my bunnies their regular hay and stuff. It’s already been more stressful than any of our past trips by far! It’s such a comfort knowing I can take care of them for another 2 months after we get to see you. I’m calming down but it’s been an emotional and a bit overwhelming first 4-5 days. So thank you for the extra big gift of convenience of not worrying my heart about these necessary bun itemsI know you understand deeply about animals and our hearts. I’m just feeling especially grateful.
5th text in progress..
DRAFT. So that cookie, with the coffee grounds in it, that was soooo delicious? Wondering about that, plus a cup of coffee, plus the steroids I’m on for this cough.. all probably shouldn’t have been mixed together – especially while I am over-tired from not sleeping (steroid side effects) and exhausted from the build-up of the last two months of Neugroove events, packing and prepping, and stressing about the apartment move-out day of, and move-in last week to our motorhome, oh and still being and feeling so sick.
New draft… Yesterday I crashed hard. Not sleeping – I couldn’t sleep – fast heart rate and lots of tears. <pic of my swollen eyes>
So many tissues, so many tears. Wrenching.. where does all that snot come from?! It’s been too many days for me without yoga, but my cough and body couldn’t have handled it sooner. Hopefully today or tomorrow or soon. (giving myself grace, not pressure)
Remember 2 days ago when I thought my nervous system was restabilizing? Guess that really happened yesterday… and is obviously still in progress. At 6am I was awake thinking about all the things those tears represented for me.. I’m working up to sharing that list.
myfalseselfsays... what do you have to cry about? so many worse things are happening to other people on our planet, in our country, and even just down the street.
Yes. So many "things" happening are absolutely terrible. But I first must help myself to be able to help others again. Today I am helping myself with my stress level and mindset by reflecting on the past few days and tuning into self-love, listening to my true self instead...
#mytrueselfsays... crying is an expression of emotions going through your body. Feelings and emotions are to be noticed, named, respected, experienced, and if lucky, witnessed by another, but not suppressed. Tears can bring relief by letting things go, not holding things in.. they can allow you to settle into a new (many times refreshed) state of being. Just moving out of a home is stressful, but these big life leaps are more stressful. The idea of trying 4 months in a motorhome is stressful, but while worrying about your 3 fur babies' heat tolerance and survival is terrifying! Being so sick and not sleeping is stressful and doesn't allow me to handle things at my best.
I am out of my comfort zone, and finding my way. My forever love is by my side and I have the support of many people who love me, I will find my way beyond surviving. My heart is already starting to feel full again. 💜
Time to feed the buns.🐰 #rvbuns
